The First Series
First
By : Lady Sirona lsirona@pacbell.net,
Rated NC17 [Buffy/Angel] M/F consensual sex, oral and anal sex, blood
play, BDSM, roleplay
Spoilers: Up to Bad Eggs then the universe splits off from there
Because of my personal and professional life, I will be unable to finish the series. Instead of leaving people hanging, I am posting the IM rough draft that the series was based on.The story is here as well as the plot and the smut. My good friend Dallas transcribed the IM format into something you could read. Thank you Dallas for all the hard work!
start 11firstA-Angelus rolls over and watches Buffy sleep...he was glad they had seetlteld many of their
differencesB-buffy stirs feeling his gaze even inher sleep slowly stirs..opens her eyes and smiles at him.. hey....
A-hey... feeling rested?
B-yawns and stretches a little.. wincing slightly.. yeah... how you feeling???
A-ok... kinda weird...rolls over and gives her her meds...so what are we going to do today?
B-smiles grimacing taking them... am sick of meds.. why you feeling wierd?? always keen to know
his feelings now..smiles I want to take you into town... see some sites.. do things you haven't done
before...A-I am not sure... it was interesting making love to love and not raw passion...ok..I liked it though
B-smiles... I think you're going to be a fast laerning about love angelus... small smile.. kisses him
softly before getting up and dressing..A-he watched her dress curiously... he was attracted but it wasn't sexually ...
B-smiles and I think you will like all of it... you just have to tell me what you do like...not really
looking at him as she selected her top for the day...A-ok I will tell you...
B-picked out a simple short sleeve blouse.. that covered her stomache and the dressing
there...smiles at him... and don't be afraid to take control... it's allowed...A-You'll need to take a sweater Buffy Ireland can be cold at night
B-nods.. and takes a jacket out of the bag..starts dping her make up.. carefully... smiles.. softly as
she finishes..A-he rolls out of bed and strolls to the closet. he walks differently than Angel...more assured more
aggressive... more like a panther's strollB-does her hair sitting on the bed watching him.. smile of appraciation...I'm sure you're related to
a cat... small mutter..A-dresses in black slackes, boots anfd a shilk shirt, grabs leather jacket...why is that? he askes
curiosB-a few things.. your walk... you're quietness.. the hunter in you... and the purr...smiles at him...
A-oh... you want me to stop it?..I like the hunt... mumbles under his breath... sadly
B-god that purr.. turns my insides inside out...
A-smiles at her his lop sided smile... you like it when I growl too :)
B-I love it angelus.. everything about you.. as long as you don't just humans.. or don'tkill humans..
I don't mindA-if I don't kill can I hunt? hopeful smile...
B-smiles.. the growl is nearly as bad as the purr... it makes me melt....looks at him.... people would
know there were vamps in sunnydale.. thinks for a moment.. if they didn't know i guess.. hmm or
else....smiles when I'm healed you can hunt me... sly smile...A-laughes...I said hunt... I didn't say catch
B-chuckles.. in that case yes you can hunt...stands and gives him a small kiss... frowns... thinking of
how she can't slay.. you
could always hunt vamps...someone has too..A-I am teasing you Buffy... I don't have choir boys strength...cool can I kill them?
B-nods... yeah.. might be best.. shurgs.. I can;t...
A-why not Buffy?...you are an awsome slayer
B-shakes her head slwoly... not any more, smiles brightly.. you ready to go???
A-nods
B-determined not to dwell on her problems.. leads him to the door.. come on then we have lots to
see and do tonight... smling..steps out looking back at him.. do you need to feed on the way.. it's
been a while since the last time....A-yeah I do... areyou up to it or do you want me to do it alone?
B-smiles.. thinking for a few seconds then nods and holds her hand out to him.. I'm up to it...
A-ok he leads her out the door genlty
B-wraps an arm around his waist... head on his shoulder... thinking about what to do with him all
night...A-I missed ireland. it is such a powerful country... boring as hell at imes...they walked to the car..so
where are we going now Mistress?B-smiles.. at the name... angelus don't call me that.. thinking of darla..... frist you're getting
something to eat.. then we're going for a walk thourgh the nearest city...there's still somethings you
need to see and understand..A-ok. I never callled her mistress Buffy...he drives while...
B-nods... slightly embaressedm to be seen through so well. I know it's just i don't want to control
you.. ever...A-too bad they don't have cattle around here I HATE lamb...snarls at the thought of lamb
B-chuckles softly.. remebering the last time she'd been with him when he fed...angelus you won't
umm get.... frowns thinking of the word...changes her line of thought as a thought hits her...
angelus.. what about other vampire blood???A-what do you mean?...and no I won't get frisky and rape you after I feed I promise
B-smiles at his words... thanks... is it possible to fed off other vampires...
A-yes it is...
B-why don't you do that... t wouldn't you have the thrill of the hunt and the kill??...naturally
curious.... not even slightly grossed at the thoughtA-looks at her shocked and then smiled... yeah... yeah I could...
B-smiles shyly.. I guess you're not having lamb tonight then....
A-could be a territorial elder... although I am some what young...
B-frowns.. a what???like the master???
A-there is a type of vampire... called territorial Elder... who kills any and all young ones who comes
inot his territory...and can often feed on them...no he was a master... attracked followers...
Territorial Elders are usually loners...B-puts her hand on his leg.. smiles.. sounds good to me... ...
A-kisses her quickly
B-leans back in her seat.. watching the city lights growing closer... I like this coutry angelus...
A-smiles....but it can be butally hard and cold to breathers
B-it' very beautiful.. you must have hated leving here... rubs his leg slightly...
A-when I was young... all I could think of was leaving...
B-nods.. understanding... I felt that way about sunnydale.. but then when i meet you.. I couldn't
imagine life anywhere else....they start driving through the city out skirts...you'll be able to find
other vamps.. thinking... or do you want me to find some for you??A-I don't think there are many around here... I'll eat lamb and we can go on our way...we run
accross a vamp... I'' have a snackB-nods... silently thankful at not having to go near opther vampires... ok...
A-pulls to the side of the road where there are some sheep grazing...
B-you want me to come???
A-kisses her... no stay here and stay warm... I'll be back...
B-kisses him back... shuts her eyes resting agansit her seat
A-he slides inot hunting mode although hunting isn't what you could call going after sheep..that
was more like the fish in a barrel routine...B-*at least he's happy about himself now* small smile.. opneing her eyes to watch his graceful
movements...A-but the anticipation of warm blood... of the pulse and the taste increased his anticipation.
B-timdly reaches out just feeling the egde of his emotions...her own emotions only ebign love and
acceptance...A-finds a large ewe... and seperates the wool hunches down being carefule not to dirty his self he
sinks his fangs into the neck...B-grimaces.. only at the akwardness he must feel at feeding from the sheep... gives a small giggle..
A-the pleasure form the blood suffuses him...
B-quickly quietens losing herself in his feelings.....*wouldn't be surprised to wake up one night and
have fangs..*..eyes shuts and her head falls back on to her seat... pleasure coursing through her...A-the thick warm blood all entirley satisfying... infusing his entire body with pleasure and with
satsifaction.B-sighs... small whimper escaping her....
A-he could feel the desire to drain and kill... draw the life force inot himself in a show of poer but
pulls back... and goes to the next tone and repeats... leaving the firs weak but alive.B-frowns watching him show his control... *he's leaving sheep alive..??* realising he must be
showing her the control and wish to pleaseA-feeds on two more for satitation of blood without killing....she can feel the draw of the kill..the
need to absorbe the life forceB-sit up straight really focusing on his emotions.... manily out of curiosity... not caring about the
sheep... just why he was oing it...sighed... accepting he would always remain a mystery to her...A-he finished... very satisfied... but with a unsatisfied ache in his chest... the need for the kill
B-moved restlessly in her seat.. wanting to be doing something... the pleasure from angelus not
turning her on but making her feel.. something...sighing she slipped out of the car..A-walk back to the car... gets a bottle of water out of the trunk and rinses his mouth...checks his
shoes no surprises...B-goes over to him... why didn't you....slips her arm around his waist.... they're only sheep.. I don't
understand why you
didn't kill one...A-the farmers who raise them don't need to lose their animals...It won't do any good... not very
satisfying kills anyway...kinda a wasteB-nods a small smug smile hovering on her lips.. ahh.... I see.. ignoring his second reason..stands on
tip toe and gives him a quick kiss...A-smiles at her
B-shivers and goes back into the car....
A-they drive to Galway...park in a parking lot of a resturant and make reservationd for later in the
evening...B-looks around carefully.. looking for the more run down area... comeone.. lets walk.. where we
go you might even find a snack.. thinking about how vamps often fed on homeless people...A-shruggs and follows her
B-reaches out her hand for his...
A-he takes her hand and walkes with her...
B-I think it's time for you to see somehing I tried to explian to you earlier...
A-ok
B-they start to walk into the run dwon section of town.. where beggers and other homeless people
were all along the street...prosterutes at every corner...moved slightly closer to angelus.. sliding an
arm around his waist..looks up at him... then looks around... sees two small children sitting on the
curb in ragsA-he looks at her what does she want form him?
B-angelus look at those two.. a low soft whisper.. they'll be dead before winter is out...
A-yeah they will be...
B-so will most of the old people here.. the women will end up selling themselves..then hurt or raped
or worse...A-frowns... it is the mortal coil Buffy whats the deal?
B-they have nothing here.. not even hope... walk over to an old women and hands her twenty
dolloars...smiling softly at her before going back to him...frowns.... angelus.. look at them.. do they
make you feel anything here?? puts her
hand on his chest above his still heartA-your a softy Buffy
B-looks at him.. no I'm no softy... but I care...
A-why?..what good does it do? that twenty will not save her... only extend her life a few more
days... maybeB-frowns... confused... I'm slayer i'm destined to save mankind from destruction by evil.. yet i come
to places like this and see what it's like.. I wonder why i even fight...A-Because you have no choice... if you give up on them you give up on them all...
B-but then i see the looks on the faces of them when you stop and talk to them or give them
soemthing.. I see life.. and hope.... and that makes it better and worth it...looks at him.. you mean
that seeing these people does nothing for...... stops dead
frowning.. her spider sense warning her about another vampire near..angelus??? small
whimper....moving against him... slightly paniced..A-he was gong to answer but he also feels the other vampire near...puts his arm around her...
B-looks u at him... the real killer them is the vamps.. none cares if these people die so the vamps
feed off them...A-they are the perfect kills... no one misses them and no one hunts you down for them...don't make
it messy you can do it for ages...B-frowns trying to spot the other vamp.. but can't exaclty...I spend a lot of time with the homeless
in sunnydale.. small smile have a lot of friends..moves in his arms angelus i can't see it....whimpers
very softly... she was terrifed and didn't like it... the lack of her senses scaring her the most..A-can't see what Buffy?
B-I can't see the vampire....
A-he is around the cornor
B-frowns looks back at him.. trying to hide her feelings...... you're going to feed..
A-peredatory smile crosses his face... this will be a real hunt!.
B-smiles.. then frowns slightly.. not wanting to be alone.. also wants to see him in action...do you
mind if I'm there???A-he steps out and starts to stalk the other vampire... he wants a high enotinal kill...hankering for
an adenelin rush..no shakes head.. he is focused on his preyB-frowns watching him...... is almost a different person/..
A-he rounds the corner and see the vampire... a younger one probably around 50 or so good he
doens't "know him"B-stays well behind bu just close enough she's comfortable...watches carefully. seeing the other
vampire now... thankful she's with angelus...V-senses angelus turns and looks for what he can sense as an older vampire..focuses and sees
angelus.. nods slightly aknowlegding him...(note to crys V stands for vampire)A-hunting good tonight? his arm is around Buffy
V-oh yeah... too easy really these people are like sheep.. don't even fight anymore...
B-looks up at angelus not completely sure of what he was doing..
A-I don't like sheep... I like the fight... predatory smile
V-glances at buffy with a raised eyebrow.. nice pet....fights can be fun... slow evil smile.... people
here that see me though now just offer necks.. such a waste..B-fliches slgihtly under the vamps gaze... although by the looks of it.. you have the same charm..
whereever did you find such a tasty morsel??A-Don't even think about it... I have moved on to another sort of kill... too bad you can't try
it...large predatory smile... nosferatu..attacks quickly...the younger vamp hasn't got a chace and
beofre he can react Angelus fangs are in
his neckB-wtaches.. a small smile on her lips...
A-Angelus feels the drain.. the mixture of blood of different humans... the adenlin he absorbed
with his kills..the younger one struggles... vamps don't die form blood loss like humans and are
aware until they explode inot dust...B-moves and leans aganst the wall........ hugs herself softly..
A-the excasty of the kill is upon Angelus... the power the life force flowing inot him
V-groaning in agony.. you killl your own kind?? we are the same.....
A-it is almost orgasmic...I am not the same... he growls inot the neck as he takes the last blood and
he
disolves into dustB-jerks up both sharing his pleasure and slightly curious..walks over and carefully places her hand
on his back...A-the emotinal high... is holding Angleus... he feels sated... and pleasured... just like he had finished
sex..turns to her... blood on his mouth... licking his lips as he tries to calm himself...and go back to
human..slowly he transforms inot human...B-rubs his cheek.... leaning up and kisses his cheek softly..leans her head on his shoulder....slowly
letting her own emotions stop reacting to his...A-choir boy is going to kill me for letting you join a kill...
B-shakes her head softly...no he won't he knows what i'm doing tonight....and is
understanding...kisses him softly.... was it better???A-Poh yes... I needed the kill... it isn't as good as human... but damn well better than sheep. pig or
cattle....B-nods slightly.. moving against him slowly...reluctantly moves away.. come on we still have lots to
do...A-nods and follows her...
B-may have to book a hotel here tonight...goes back to the street where the two children
were...looks back at him, why aren't you the same angelus...A-what do you mean?...I am the same....
B-that vampire said you were the same as him.. you said you wren't... why???...cocks her head to
the side watching hm carefully..A-I don't hunt human and I hunt vampire... thats a difference.
B-nods slowly.. what else...
A-I am feeling emotions... and starting to care about things...that scares me...
B-smiles softly..... I know.. cups his cheek kissing him softly...looks back at the kids.. frowns..
angelus.. give me some money please....raises an eyebrow.. almost treating this as her own small
test...A-shakes his head no removes a business card form his wallet and writes in gaelic on it...and hands
her the card... tell them to See Father Mackmillian at St. Maries church.B-looks at him....then sighs not really understanding him.. goes and does as she is told ...
A-choir boy runs a charity for the homless in galway...
B-watches as they kids run off.... nods slowly.. why am I not surprised at that...
A-has been doing so for 80 + years....
B-looks at him again... then smiles.. where is it??
A-out of St Maries church
B-nods.. lets go there... can you stand it for a little while???
A-walks her down a few streets and points to a large church...yeah I can stand it
B-nods taking his hand.. lets go then.. just ell me when it's to much...
A-nods....are you sure you want me and not Angel? he used to worship here....
B-kisses his hand lovingly.. knwoing he still didn't understand what she was telling him.. but not
minding...looks at him... smug smile.. you could try to change over but I know right now angel isn't
letting you untill I've shown you my point and you can see it...A-they walk into the church./.. it is not a gand place but one well used in it's time...he avoids the
fount with the holy water like it is acid...looks around..B-looks around carefully...squeezes his hand.... looks at the people in there... a few homeless people
on the seats... seeking refuge off the street..A-the stautes are lit with candles...
B-looks up and sees the small balcony up stairs.. takes him to the small sairwell....and leads him
upstairs...A-and there is a warm homey feeling in the church
B-they can over look the whole place.. she sits carefully and looks down...what's different about
these people angelus.. from the others we saw???A-they have some sort of hope I guess.
B-nods pleased that he saw it at once...why???...what gives them that hope??
A-I dunno
B-sighs.. sliding her arms around him softly... think angelus.. what do they have here and not
outside that gives them so much hope???A-religion?
B-shakes her head softly.... no I could take you down there and half of them won't even notice
that..it's people angelus.. people that care enough to help them.....A-then what?...oh...
P-a priest walks up to them(note P stand for priest)
B-turns and smiles at him...
A-angelus makes a slight step back..
B-moves slightly.. in between him and the priest.. holding angelus frimly in place..
P-good evening my children...
A-nods
B-smiles... hello.. father...
P-you are new here.. i remeber everyone that comes into this house of god..[children pointed them
out as sneding them to the church]A-it has been awhile...a long while
P-nods all are elcome here.. specailly two that know of us enough to help oithers find their way
here..looks over to where the two kids from the street were both sitting talking..A-looks confused
B-smiles thank you... my husband sent them here....
P-looks at him... smiling.. you know of our chairity??? not many do...
B-gantly squeezes angelus's hand.. soothing him...
P-those two childern will both live to grow up thanks to you my son...
A-I know of the charity... I am Angelus Boyle
P-stops and looks at him.. braod smile.. in that case you are very welcome here son....
A-I have known of it for a ...long time...it is a family hobby of sorts...
P-nods I know ... you are a good man to do this.. you have the lords blessing and mine ...
B-smiles genlty.. turning and sliding her arm around angelus...
A-shudders att he thought of that the priest missed it but Buffy felt it...Our family came form
GalwayP-and in this time there is more evil than good in this world.... you would have some of the finest
blood in you then... full of pride.. our ancestors were all good caring people..some of that just got
lost along the wayB-moves softly aginst angelus.. sending him a blot of claming and soothing feelings...
A-she can feel his skin is crawling... not in pain but unconfrotable...
P-the preist sighs as he sees more homelss people enetering... if you'll excuse me.... the lords work is
never done...B-nods.. it's was good meeting you father...
A-nods at him...releved he left...
B-turns in his arms and hugs him tight...you ok??
A-nods.
B-I know that must have been horrible.. but thank you...
A-it feels weird to be in a church getting thanked by a priest for being a "good man"
B-smiles.. why he was telling the truth.. come on I think I can show you more outside.. yoiu're so
close to it nowA-nods and follows her out
B-walks with him down the street then thinks for a moment... looking around..she turns adn walks
down a dark alley...A-follows her
B-looks around then sees the movement in the dark as people scatter fearing them..stops.. and
faces him.. now.. how do you feel about these people angelus???...still don't care.... theres more to
show you I just need to know how much...A-looks around at them...
B-watches him... knowing his close.. just unsure about it... moves and sides her arms around his
neck... don't think.. just feel...A-sad and pitiful creatures...
B-shuts her eyes.. realising nothing had changed....
A-his mind thought what would it feel like if one of them was buffy...and the feelings started.. a
deep ache in the chest...b-that all.. not ready to give up yet...
A-he has no idea what the feeling is [heartbreaking] and it alarms him...he hates the thought of her
ever being like this... and remembers Angels' pain as he lived in the alley way of new yourkB-looks a up at him small smile... it's ok angelus.... you're just feeling things...do you know what
they are yet??A-the dpression the hopelessness the ache of desire to die...shakes his head... no
B-compassion.. empathy.. sympathy... caring.. .... kisses him ver so softly..congratulations angelkus
we just found your haert...A-if it isn't me... why do I hurt?
B-it's hard to expalin.. but people share emotions... well some do... not with our bond.. but just by
seeing people less off then themselves.. the pity trurns into symapthy. then into empathy then into
caringA-oh sounds mystified... it is a new idea for him...why on earth would I WANT to do that?
B-then they act.. or those with haerts and feelings do....some people block it out..they don't want to
care..looks at him sadly.. I don't know that's the one question you have to answer yourself..you can
care or you can block it out.. that's the decision i brought you here for..A-you want me to care...you want me to do something about it too...you want me to have
...empathy...compassion...synmpathyB-looks at him... shakes her head.. it doesn't maytter what i want.. this is YOUR choice.. I just
wanted you to know you had it..come on.. we'll eat find a hotel, and you can think about it...A-pulls her to him... I want to please you...and you are showing me things I never thought of
B-smiles.. hugging him you do please me.. your saw and felt that pelased me.. the rest is what will
please YOU... kisses him lightly..rubs against him slightly.. sighs.. come on lover food now..A-he leads her to the resturant
B-smiles at him.. so you want to stay in town till tomorrow night?? you can get in another hunt
before we leave...A-smiles yeah I would...the go to the resturant and enter
B-smiles at him slyly smiles at him... besides I figure you want to think tonight.. frowns there's
something I want to think about anyway...A-what is that?...they sit at the table and he looks at the menu
B-shakes her head looking at him.. nothing important don't worry...reads her own.. not looking at
him..think i'll just have a salad and a drink angelus....A-what no classic Irish food?
B-smiles.. haven't been hungary lately......looks past him out the window.. watching people walk
by...have you ever wanted
stay here???? just not go back...A-No. Becausre then I would be without you...and I can't do that
B-looks at him.. what if I were here to.. forget the hellmouth and the slaying... just have our own
lives???...smiles sadly.. forget it.. it's a silly thought..A-No buffy it isn't...I will be with you where ever and what ever you want to do... it doen't matter
the
place...B-nods i know.. and i love you for it... smiles..holds her hand out on the table for his...
A-I will follow you to the damn equator if you wanted tropical...takes her hand
B-smiles a bit.. I was thinking antartica.. six months of no sun...squeezes his hand tight....
A-laughes good for me not for you...and it would be to cold for you
B-then you'd have to warm me up.. sly smile
A-Buffy I can do alot of things but warm you isn't one of them...then a pain lances through him
with incredible keen brittle loss...B-gasps feeling it.. angelus????
A-what do I do when you die buffy?
B-swallows shutting her eyes...don't let me die.... not till i;m very old.. then you wait till I'm rebron
and find me
again...A-your kidding right?
B-shakes her head slowly watching him... why???
A-looks at Buffy with big eyes... how would I find you again?
B-swallows abck tears looks at her uneaten food.. then at him.. comeone lets get out of here.....we'll
talk at the hotel..squeezes his hand tight... her own haert constructing in pain at the thought of life
without angel/usA-Buffy you need to eat... please eat for me and then I will be yours for the night to talk... but I
need you to eat for me ok?B-shakes her head.. even though she's hardly eaten in days... I;m not really hungary angelus..
A-Please Buffy? for me?
B-sighs.. piks slowly at her food... chewing it.. slowly.. not really tasing it....after a few mouthfuls
she puts her fork down....looks at him...A-kisses her...buffy feel it...
B-feel what?? slightly puzzeled?
A-FEEL it - gives her a feeling of deep hunger
B-whimers softly under it...looks at him.. angelus.. that was a mean trick.. glares at him...
A-smiles...now eat...then we will go to a hotel
B-nods slowly.. but still only really picks at her meal.. it's not the hungar not letteing her eat...
A-please buffy? his eyes are big he is really worried...
B-sighs softly.. angelus..Im ok.. just not really hunagry...nibbles at her sald has eaten about a 1/4 of
it...drinks her water though... then forces more food down till she's eaten half the meal..A-he smiles
B-looks at him.... sighing.. that's as much as i can eat....
A-he is eating his corned beef and cabage
B-yawns almost exhausted.. the tiredness hitting her suddenly....watches him eat., sipping at her
water..{nervous reactions to her whole situation still settling in??? her loss just beginning to set
in...}A-Choir boy always loved this... got it on high days and holidays
B-chuckles... hot corned beef sandwhiches., grew up on them....
A-smiles as he finishes it... tastes good... does nothing for the hunger but it is a pleasent diversion...
B-smiles.. eyes shutting for a minute... you're a strange person...said lovingly..
A-you questioned that?
B-chuckles.. nope not for a minute...yawns and slowly srtands up... quite weak.. holding on the
chair for support...A-he got up and dropped the money on the table and helped her out
B-looks at him.. determined not to fall... leaning against him.... hotel to talk now??
A-nods... when they get outside he scoops her up and starts to walk to the hotrel
B-trying to act like nothing was wrong with her.. hoping he would get it go..moves in his arms..
angelus.. put me down...A-no
B-her struggles are only light.. too tired to put up much of a physical fight.. i'm fine angelus..
honest..A-walks into the hotel and puts her inot a chair and goes to get a rom -stay he growls in her ear
she realizes he is very seriousB-sighs sitting back and shutting her eyes....windering what the hell was wrong with her..*strange*
A-he gets a room. simple and straight forward... plays through until the night...
B-yawns softly.. almost falling asleep in the chair...
A-walks over and scopps her up and walks to the room carrying her to the room]
B-nuzzles against him softly.. mm angelus.. smile content smile.. we're still going to
talk...A-I know... the bell boy iopens the door at a loss... they have no luggage.
B-kisses his neck softly...
A-he puts her on the bed and excorts the bell boy out handing him a bill... locks the
doorB-whimpers softly at him leaving her...
A-he comes back to her and sits down next to her....I'm here
B-moves slowly so her head is in his lap..lays there. not moving just resting.. eyes shut...
A-he sits ther stroking her face gently...Buffy your hotter than ususual...I don't like this...
B-whimpers softly... it's ok... turning into his cool touch...eyes shut again.. she's so tired... moans
softly.. you feel so good...so cold... small whimper...A-he frowns, picks up the phone and speaks to it in gaelic
B-whimpers at the loss of his hand...angelus.....
A-he strokes her once again...she is too hot... even for her...
B-arches softly into his touch... mmmm... so good...
A-he pulls up her shirt andlooks at her incision... it is an angry red... and very hot to
the touchB-even in her sickness knowing who was with her... angelus.. whimpering his name..moving her hot
skin aganst his cool touch...A-he slowly started to undress her...
B-moans... too tired too protest or help..sighs opening her eyes... thristy..... small whisper...
A-he strips her completley and lays her in the bed... she is hot to the touch and it
alarms him ...he goes and gets her ice water and brings it to herB-lifts her head slightly from the bed.. trying to get it....
A-holds her and gives it to her to drink
B-sips at it a few times bfore stopping...
A-Angel inside him Is freaking and comes to the forground... he remembers helping a
woman neighbor who died of childbed fever... when he was a boy...Buffy?B-looks at him.. with slightly confused eyes...
A-strokes her... feels the heat... starting to panick...
B-whimpers softly.... angelus??/ unable to tell... to out of it...tries to moves to him.... to his coolness
A-no baby... Angel...he lays next to her... his coolness helping her
B-nods slightly.. understanding.. curls up alittle head moving slowly to his shouder...angel...
A-He looks at her carefyully and then checks between her legs, a slight smell of
infecion...yes? he is trying to hold his emotion... and flaing miserbaly... he is terrieidB-whimpers softly....feeling his emotions.... wh.. why did you swap...not really realising how sick she
is..just feels tired...A-Your sick Buffy.. you have childbed fever... Angleus doesn't know what it is... we
need to get you to a hospitalB-thinks angelus may have hid from her...shakes her head... no more hospitals....
A-It is in the early stages they have antibiotic now
DR-knock on the door.(note to crys DR stands for doctor)
A-opens to see a MD with his bag
B-no more.... please... small pathetic plee
A-Angel is lost he doesn't rember calling him
DR- I am Doctor Denton...you have a sick woman? Angel nods...
B-sees the doc and whimpers softly.. almost pathetically
A-I think it is child bed fever... she had a hysterectomy awhile ago, lost a pregnancy... was shotin
the abdomen with a cross bow boltDR-cross bow bolt? raises eyebrow...
A-it was an accident... wrong place at the wrong time
B-head falls back.. small whimper vampires....
A-I thin she is delusional right now...
D-looks at her takes her temp 103.4...she is most definately ill
B-whimpers at the doctor touching her.. tries to pull back.. angel.....
DR-does she have any allergies to drugs - Angel sheckes his head, MD draws some
blood work two sites...I need to examine her....A-Angel nodded... and helped position her for a relvic...
DR-he took some swabs
B-whimpers.. at the site of him and her blood she freezes.. and opens her mouth to scream....
A-it is ok Baby please....calms her gently...
DR-yes she has an infection
B-whimpers shaking in his arms... no..... please angel.. please..,
A-Buffy please... if you don't take care of it you'll die...
DR-I need to give her two shots is she taking oral fluids ok?
A-Angel nodded
B-whimpers still shaking...squirms slightly.. too weak to really fight him...
DR-I need to give you two shots then I will send the pharmacy over with her perscription. If her
fever doesn't come down with the tylenol... she will have to be admitted. I understand she hates
hospitals but it is her life...B-please angel.. don't let him hurt me.. please.... small plea
A-Angel nods...Buffy I love you take the shots... please... for me?
B-whimpers looking into his eyes...slowly stills and settles still staring into his eyes nods slowly..
DR-he gives her a sot in the left thigh and it hurt like hell!...I am sorry it burns...gives the other one
in the right thigh it doesn't hurt as much but it hurtsB-cries out.. jerking in his arms...you promised... small pathetic glare..
A-holds her close.. I love you Buffy I don't want to lose you..not now...
B-starts crying softly... it hurts
A-I know... but it beats the fever...
B-whimpers eyes shutting.. going limp in his arms...she can feel his fear of the fever...moans softly...
angel.. your emotions hurt...completely out of things..A-I am sorry Buffy... I don't mean to hurt you... tries to clamp down... stroking her face...
B-moves slightly in his touch...
DR-tylenol ever four hours alternate with asperin ever four hours encourage alot of fluid...if she
still has a fever at dawn... take her to the hospital she may be septic...A-nods
B-whimpers.. curling into him....
DR-The antibiotic every four hours there are three
A-nods... his fear turning into out right terror.
B-squirms... fliching at his terror..
DR-bath her with cool water to lower the temp
A-nods
DR-here is my number I will accept her as my patient is she requires a MD to be
admittedB-just moans softly..
A-thank you doctor...
DR-leaves angel turns back...and goes to the bath and gets what he needs to bath her
A-Angelus is trying ot ocme out... he has scanned Angel's meemories and he is
terrieifed tooB-whimpers pouting.. don't wanna bath....
A-Angelus persuades Angel to let him out with Angel monitoruin
B-whimpers.. angel??
A-Angelus comes in with the towels and the basin
B-angel......
A-sits next to her... strips nude and l;ays next to her
B-maons and is drawn to his side.. his coolness...
A-he slowly starts to stroke her with the cool towel... it feels so good against her
fevered skinB-mmmmmm..........opens her eyes and sees the look on his face...
A-he looks at her... fear raging inside him... shit she has childbed fever... 100%fatal
in Angel's time...B-thinks small whimper.. angelus??? almost begging him to talk to her....
A-continues to stroke her as the towel warms he recols it...yes baby
B-hand weakly comes up and touches his face...
A-Drink for me Baby hods the
B-sips slowly.... then weakly pushes his hand away...
A-Buffy you need to drink or I got to take you to the hospital...continues to bath her.
B-looks at him... pouts.. don't lie you... childish voice..
A-the medicatins are delivered and he gives her the antibiotics
B-slowly sips the drink... has about half the glass...
A-Buffy I am not lying...
B-whimpers... drinks the rest of the drink....falls back on the bed...
A-he continues to bath her and give her tylenol through the night her fever breaks
around 5am..B-she awakes form sleep feeling better...eyes open...
A-he is still bathing her with the cloth...he is so scared he is frozen
B-eyes focus on him frowning?? angel??.. angelus????watches him.. slowly tries to raise her head
up...sighs letting it fall back...A-angelus... rest ... you had a hard night
B-sighs looking at him carefully.. you look like hell...
A-he holds her to him loving the fact her body is cooler
B-snuggles into him.. mmmm thanks angelus...
A-I was scared buffy...I was scared I was going to lose you...You had child bed fever...
B-smailes sofly against him... you won't.. ever...lose me.. to stubborn for that..
A-I am scared buffy...Angel is terrifed...of the fever...
B-nods.. i felt it.. you both were.. it hurt...nuzzles into him.. arms going around him.... small smile
think you just laernt
about emapthy last night angelus..yawns softly...A-shakes his head 'no" i don't want it... it hurts...
B-moves slightly.. cupping his face.. I know it hurts... that means you feel it.. and that
you can feel..A-I don't like it.... it hurts... I don't want to feel like that... he is scared...
B-without that hurt it's nothing.. no love no anything... you'll be empty...kisses him softly... wraps
her arms around him.. just hold me and rest angelus... it's ok....kissing his forheadA-pulls her to him... he isn't sure if he wants to do this feeling thing....picks up the phone... and
speaks in gaelic. hangs up and snuggles down with her...B-nuzzles into him.. who was that...shivers a little cold.. looks down realising shes naked...
A-The front desk they will call us every four hours for your meds
B-ahh nods snuggles intohim. shivers a bit.. are there more blankets angelus?? I'm a little cold...
A-he smiled and snuggled her in blankets
B-and more tahn a little naked.. small chuckle...angelus... did you think more about your
choice..nuzzleing under the blankets till just her face appaered out frowm them...A-I have no choice buffy... I don't like it... but I know if I am going to have you in my
life I better get used to emotions... frowns he is a lttitle scared ... this could seriously suck...B-smiles softly.. I know that... its wheter you'll act on them I want to know.. and
how....moves against him... still getting comfy... I've seen tonight how tender you can
be... i'm just being nosey i think...kisses him softly...A-kisses her back
B-soon just the top of her head is peeiping out from the covers as she falls asleep
in his arms...A-he lays in his bed enjying her in his arms
B-Buffy wakes slowly in angelus's arms.. sighs.. her body sore and stiff. but she looks up and
simplely watches his face as he sleeps..even in his sleep he still manages to look graceful....moves
slightly kissing him.. thinking of how far he';d come.. and how far he still had to go...A-Angelus face is harder than Angels she relaizes... even in sleep he commands
more power more strength...eyes flicker with sleep he is deep in rem sleep his only movementB-smiles at him... his careless good looks and suppressed power...even she knew for all her talk he
could beat her in an instant if they had to fight...and it thrilled her more than scared her that they
were together..A-his eyes are flickering...and he seems to be getting upset in his dream he begins to
snarl in his dreamB-looks at him slightly alarmed... moves up and touches his cheek.. angelus....
A-wakes suddenly with a growl deep inot game face... he is confused... disoriented
and angry... shakes his headB-angelus.. my love... easy... trying to sooth him..easy.. not moving away or really noticing his game
face...A-he is tense and seems disoriented and puls away from her for a moment before he
relaxes to he touchB-puts her arms around him moving so they're face to face...hey honey.. you ok?? a soft tnder
voice... kissing his face softly... soothing himA-burros inot her arms and shivers a moment
B-frowns slightly.. but holds him tight.. resting her face against his hair...kissing his hair... easy boy..
easy.. it's ok.. I'm here right here...A-not fair.... mumbles into her arms
B-hands gently travelling his back...what;s not fair???...honey???
A-he just shakes his head no...
B-nods.. it's ok... tell me later...i'm here i love you... just relax hon... just let it go...
A-I can't I don't know what to do... I don't know how... it doesn't make sense...
B-hey easy.. easy..... hands running into his hair.. it was just a dream angelus.. just a
dream.. it's not real...A-no buffy it was real... it was real...
B-kissinghis hair... from the past????
A-nods
B-frowns nuzzling into him.. darla???
A-no things I did
B-remeber angelus... i love you.. you can tell me..things you did.. oh angelus.. it's ok.. it's ok....I'm
here for you..it's all past now...A-shudders...Buffy I relived something I did... and i felt what my vicitm felt. shudders
B-shuts her eyes... oh god angelus.... it's ok..... kissing him... anywhere she can.. it's
ok.. the dreams... they're no real.. they can't hurt you...A-but I did it to them buffy... what they felt... it was horrible...
B-nods slowly... I know.. it's part of you that pain.... it;s makes you who you are...
A-shakes his head...no no I can't I can't do this... I can't think on what I did to [people... I can't do
this
buffy...B-holds him softly... I am sorry angelus... you can't make that past go awsay... but
you can make sure it never happens to other people...A-growls yes I can ake sure it never happens again....
B-smiles... thn frowns... I hope you're not thinking of anything silly...just help me.. hunt the vamps..
kill them and fight at my side.. that's all we can do reallyA-nothing silly... just making sure it will never happen again.... he clamps down on
his emotions...B-feels the block go up and looks at him.. jerking back so she's face to face...
looking at him.. what are you doing??A-nothing... going to make sure it never happenes again...kisses her roughly...almost
desperately...strokes her face...B-angelus!!!! talk to me you swore never to lie to me...
A-I am not liying to you...kisses her again... as if to memeorize her...
B-or to hide things from me..
A-I am not hiding anything from you Buffy...
B-thrinkins about it.. angelus.. you can't do anything you kill yourself and I'll follow
you..angel... don't even let him retreat....watches him caregfully.. angelus you can't do anything...
neither i or angel will let
you.....A-Buffy...
B-please.. you have to talk to me... worry and panic going through her...
A-what is there to talk about? I am a fucking monster!
B-flinches...a small whimper escaping her...looks at him slightly hurt... you are not a monster....
A-Buffy I am a monster I have done horrible things ....
B-look sadly at him... I thought you understood that.. how could I ever love a monster angelus????
I couldn't yet i love you...you've done terrible things... they're in the past.. it had no control and
from the way you were treated of course you'd do what you did.. but look at me.. it's not your
fault...A-what the hell do you mean it is not my fault... I did them!
B-yeah but you didn't know anything else!!!! you were tourtured by drala.. given out as a slave...
from day one.. you never knew how to do anything else.. it wasn't your fault...I don't even want to
know what the master would do to you...but all I know is you weren't in controlA-Still you don't understand.. I still want the blood! want to kill...I have to stop it...
B-shakes her head.... how?? how would you stop it?????..walk into the sun???
A-he hangs his head... it is the only the way Buffy to protect the innocent from me... the
mosnterB-looks at him... and leave me without you???? how long do you think I'd last
before killing myself angelus???....a day?? 2???A-why do you care Buffy? I am a monster I have preyed across the word for a
centuray and a half... I have done things that makes my skin crawl now...B-looks at him gets out of the bed and sits on the edge naked.... you think you're
the only one who hurts angelus???...the only one with nightmares????A-no... I am not the only one who hurts... but I am trying to stop it form happening in
the futureB-every night I shut my eyes and see the faces of poeple I failed to protct.. that died because i
wasn't there..every single time I shut my eyes they're there...asking me why i didn't save
them......I'm learning to live with it.. why cant you...A-shit happens you can't save everyone...he quickly grabs her and throws the two of them on the
bed...and burrows into the
covers...B-whimpers... angelus???...hands push at his shoulders....fears in her eyes at his cold words....
A-holds her tight... tight enough she can barely breathe he relazes the grip a bit but doesn't let her
goB-snuggles against him... better???...kisses his shoulder angelus.... please just give things time you'll
learn to cope...
I'm sorry if i cause you so much pain but once you get through this it will make you so much
stronger..A-why buffy.. you know the horrible things I did... why do you still care about me?
are you afraid of me?...Shit now I know why choir boy was such a fucking wuss all those years....B-sighs.. honestly.. only a little but it's over powered by my love for you..angelus... the emotions will
make you stronger I swear it...A-I trust you buffy but right now they feel like hell...
B-as for the bloodlust/ need to kill.. I told angel to share it with me... together we an
work it out together not alone....moves slightly in his tight grip.. kisses his neck...A-mumbles into her neck as he kisses and lickes
B-what was that hon??..arches her neck baring it to him...
A-repeats it... its in gaelic and he nips her neck and tatse her blood... and smiles.. no
infect smilesB-smiles fast healer... i can't speak gaelic and you know it....
A-oh I am sorry... I called you little on in Gaeliic...
B-rubs against him nuzzling him gently...little one??? my new name hmmm... smiles think i can live
with that...A-purrs...the cell phone rings...
B-mmmm, jerks over at it...no way....
A-deep snarl... answers it... "someone better fucking be dying or you will!"
B-you said no one could ring us....
A-Giles.
B-whimpers.. is it an emergancy??
G-I am sorry... Joyce was in a car accident and is in surgery... may not survive the
night... Buffy needs to get home right awayB-looks up at angel... angel what he want????
A-fuck I will have on that grape air plan on the next fligh...Your mom. She was in an accident...
B-angelus???
A-we need to get you to the airport now
B-swallows an accident???
A-she is in surgery ...
B-shakes her head slightly.. no......
A-looks at the window
B-please god no.... not mom......
A-fuck it is daylight
B-whimpers..... curling into a ball.. tears trickling down her cheeks....
A-picks up the phone and calls the desk and talks in to it isn Gaellic he is forcefull
and he is agfgressive...get dressed Buffy...you have to leave...I will be over as soone as I canB-shakes her head slightly... mom....a small whisper...looks at him eyes fill of pain and terror.....
A-the bell boy knocks on the door
B-slowly gets up and dresses quickly..stands in the room hugging herself....
A-Buffy the bell boy will take you to an airport where you will fly into the international airport...
you will then take that grape flight to the us and then to new york to LA then to sunnydaleB-shakes her head slightly.... angelus???
A-yes?
B-what will i do.. if she.... breaks off in tears...
A-I will be right behind you...Buffy you will survive. I love you
B-is too badly shaken and scared to thinkn straight...whimpers softly walks to the door.. stops at it
and looks back at him... I was wrong angelus...A-holds her hands... I am sorry about your uncle jim dying here and then having to go home to
your mom beofre the arrangements are made... I will ship your uncle jims casket to sunnydale as
soon as I can.....raises his eyebrow [did she get the code? with the beell boy standing
there?]...hands her her medsB-nods.... angelus dont' ever listen to me.. feelings aren't worth the pain... all they
are is pain and sorrow... turns and walks outA-he runs after he in the hall... you can't have it both ways Buffy... you want love you
gotta have loss...kisses her..B-looks back at him fill of pain and sorrow.. maybe you can't have have either
A-Keep safe till I get home too please?....yes.. yes you can you have shown it...
B-kisses him back looks at him not saying anything.... yeah well I've been wrong
before angelus.. turns and runs out to the car...A-he stops at the space where the sunlight hits the floor... and goes back to his rrom...a long day
until night
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