The First Series
First
By : Lady Sirona lsirona@pacbell.net,
Rated NC17 [Buffy/Angel] M/F consensual sex, oral and anal sex, blood
play, BDSM, roleplay
Spoilers: Up to Bad Eggs then the universe splits off from there
Because of my personal and professional life, I will be unable to finish the series. Instead of leaving people hanging, I am posting the IM rough draft that the series was based on.The story is here as well as the plot and the smut. My good friend Dallas transcribed the IM format into something you could read. Thank you Dallas for all the hard work!
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A-he just holds her... too scared to even think or feel terrified it will be a lie and she will send him
away ...againB-looks at him with tear filled eyes... you'll try again with me???... i know it will take awhile....
A-Buffy... I am immortal... I have all the time in the world... yes I will try again. If you want to...
B-nods i want to... just go easy... if a rant and rave... it's never because I hate you... but because
I'm scared....shyly confessed...A-holds her. I love you Buffy... I couldn't get through to you... I thought you rejected me...sent me
away rejected out marriage our bonding... Your the Slayer ...I forget your also a 16 year old girl
and you live in a horrifying world....B-shyly runs the back of her hand against his face... i can't believe how close I was to losing
you.....and it wouldhave been my flaut...I just couldn't handle the two sets of emotions..... sighs
looks at him.....i was awake at one stage in the hospital... all I could feel coming from you was hate..
i thought it was meant for me....A-no Buffy
B-i thought you blamed me... because I do... i lost your one chance for a family and i thought you
blamed me...A-When I had gotten to the Watcher Central I was told you had been killed and the coroner had
taken you.... I went after Zargon... or at least Angelus didB-nods it must have been when he was with him... it was so intense it hurt....all I ask is for time and
your support... we lost it all nearly... so much... have so much to get back....snuggles against him...
head resting on his shoulder... hand on his chest.. so much like a hurt childA-hold her gently...picks her up and carries her to the bedroom and puts her in the bed and climbs
in with her...B-curls up against him.... needing his touch
A-he lays in the bed... and strokes her gently...just touching her...making sure she is alive and
well....she is there and in his arms...B-leans up shyly kisses his cheek... promise me you'll never leave me again no matter what...
A-I will never leave you Buffy...as long as you want me with you
B-nods.... it's good enough.. thank you... puts her head back on his chest..
A-I will stay in your life as long as you want me there
B-looks up at him... i want you even when i don't want you... frowns does that even make sense???
A-chuckles... from you? Yeah
B-smiles.... kisses his shoulder.... when i'm angry hurt.. and sending you away.. all I want to do is
curl up in your arms and have you kiss it better...looks at him....A-Buffy. I will listen to your rants and you can tell me anything you want... call me an asshole... I
am one... call me a monster... I am that too. You can rant at the shitty things I have done over the
centuries and be as angry as you want. But Don't ever tell me to break the bond unless you again
unless you really mean it. That is the only thing I cannot give you. If you tell me to break the
bond... I will. I will not hold you in a bonding against your willB-whimpers slightly... i couldn't even imagine life without our bond.. our love... it would be a
thousands times worse than hell....A-I know... that is why I was watching the dawn... You know I haven't watched the dawn in 245
years?B-tear slips out... i'm sorry angel I am so sorry...
A-It's ok Buffy... I Missed the dawn and never thought I would ever see it again... It was
beautiful... and I watched it with you in my arms and you kept me safe...B-looks at him... if i could take the pain i caused you and make it my own.. I would in a second....
A-You don't need to Buffy... we have caused enough pain to each other...thanks you!
B-wipes her tears away....smiles... it's got to get easier now.... frowns well there's one more person
I feel I'll have to talk to...but I don't think I'm ready for it..A-Angelus?
B-smuggles against him slightly... yeah....
A-give him time Buffy... *I* can't even feel him....
B-frowns.. if he was bad when i was in hospital last time this will be so much worse... just tell me
when you can feel him.... we'll need to talk....A-OK
B-nods... thank you angel... just warn me when you do...
A-I'll try... but I can't promise.... Remeber at the Bronze when I told you it was horrible to have
done the things I had done and to care?... Now HE cares....B-groans.....damn it.... small groan....
A-give him time Buffy... you need time... he needs time...
B-nods slowly.. i know... I just know he's hurting
A-well I have had emotions for a century and you have had them 16 years... they are kind of new
to him...B-nods... curling up close as she can to him.... I'm getting your sleeping habits...
A-chuckles...I need to get out of these clothes...slides out of bed, moving very gingerly... he is
HURTINGB-looks at his back feeling more guilt... angel your back....
A-burned?
B-yeah.. small whisper....
A-nods...It'll heal. shruggs
B-swallows... don't you need to feed to help it or ... something??? low voice...
A-he strips and climbs back into bed... the bed is narrow and they are snuggled close I will when I
can go out... I need you ... snuggles into her smelling her hair....B-curls against him... nods i need you too...hands going around his neck....
A- they slept spoon fashion....
dusk
A-he woke holding her...
B-slept snuggled against him.. resting properly for the first time....
A-he watched her sleep...*she is the Slayer... he ability to destroy vampires extends to me..and she
can do it with just words...* Angelus thought as he watched her pain ate through him as he
realized he was going to have to stay gone... she hated HIM and hated the things HE did... it was
his fault she lost the child and almost lost her... HE was the monster...B-stirs in his arms.... slowly opens her eyes....looks up at him.. shy smile.. hey....
A-panics knowing she doesn't want to see him... hates him tries to retreat... but Angel won't let
him!B-sees the look on his face.. wakes right up... angelus????? small whisper...
A-fear laces through him... oh god no hides his face tries to retreat...
B-puts a hand out to him....
A-he looks like a beaten child...rolls over quickly and almost leaps out of bed...she can feel his guilt
and his pain... his loss is ringing through him like a spear through the heart... he starts to dress...B-slowly reaches out to touch him.. but draws back gasping in pain.... lays back quickly....
A-she can feel his fear... his hurt...it is almost blinding
B-angelus?? small whimper......
A-he gets her meds and throws her the bottle and hands her some water...Yeah?
B-sit down please.... need... the support... small groan as she opens the meds and takes some
quickly...A-why do you want my support? you made it very plan you have no use for me... snarl she feels his
pain behind the words... it was so much like her behavior it was errieB-looks at him... sighing at his pain.... sighs... then frowns.... flinching at the snarl..... of course i
have a use for you...i love you....A-I have no idea what Choir boy was thinking coming here... snorts. No you don't. You love me
when it is convent to do so... when the real me is shown,,, you throw me away like garbage.choir
boy was an idiot to ever think he could find love after the change... it is a joke. ...B-swallows hard... even thought she knew what he was doing it hurt...... angelus... i was freaked..
laerning about Zargon being your childe freaked me out for a while....A-the ache of loss is so intense it is painful to feel.. I was never prone to making alot of vampires...
there are several layers of vampire by the way...B-frowns what are you talking about????
A-minions are slaves...and never given the full treatment.... weaker and usually stupid... you kill
them without even working up an interestB-sighs.. angelus stop avoiding the issue....
A-failuers are attempted full transformations... but failed... usually mad and bizarre they are
usually killed. Drusilla fall into that category what issue? we don't have any issues.B-tests her body slightly.. then carefully rolls out of bed... stands very slowly... looks at him.. don't
we???A-he sprawls in a chair... and looks calm and detached... she can feel his agony and his pain
NO...No I believe you made it clear... we have nothing.B-try this I hurt you... but we're bonded I feel every emotion going through your body right
now.... I was hurt angelus... we have everything....A-shame and self hate flood her... he is horrified she can feel his emotion ... fuck... we have
nothing!B-slowly walks and stands in front of him...... reaches out to touch him... it's alright angelus.. it's ok
to feel...A-she can feel the pain and his distress... he actually believes it...and it is hopeless... he is regretting
Angel came out of the dawn! Feel what? I am a demon remember? i don't have emotions. I don't
feel like you do... he wants to believe that so much...and it is a lie....B-slowly rests her hand on his shoulder.. lightly....... yes you do... you have anger pain... and love....
it's new to you angelus but don't give up.. you're not like that.... i love you too much to let you back
up now......A-Don't waste my time Buffy. You want a perfect little life with a man with no history... go find it
and leave me alone... what are you going to do SLAYER? stands and starts to walk away... she
can feel his hope she will follow him and his fear she will... he is pulled totally opposite directions...
and can't functionB-sighs shutting her eyes for a moment trying to let his words bounce off her... when she opens
them there are small tears in her eyes...... follows him.... I'm going to stay right here with you till
you see reason.. and can learn to use emotions again... you really think angel would have locked
you in control if he didn't think this was for the best???A-I have no idea what the hell choir boy is doing... maybe it's payback I don't know and I don't
care... you want to play mushy with him... do so... but leave me out of it! he walks into the
kitchen... she knows he can't leave the house... it is daylight... he is rustling around in t he kitchen...B-flinches... but walks to his side..... looks at him.... god I'm sorry angelus... to have done this to
you.... it's killing me to see you this way.. but i do love you.. even if you don't want to accept it...
feels slightly hurt but full of guilt and love for him...A-can you just fuck off and leave me alone?sighes and starts routing through drawers
B-smiles at him... NO you want me to leave you alone picks up a knife and hands it to him... then
kill me.....you want me gone make it be........ looks at him........ completely unafraid...A-looks at her...takes the knife... flips it... and grabs the handle in a flashy play of showing his skill
with knives...B-doesn't move just looks at him... a gently caring look.. not even watching the knife,, just his face..
A-she can feel the agony in him.. he needs to do something... he needs to put it in a way he can deal
with....
looking her in the eye... he brings the knife down rapidly. it never touched her.B-smiles slightly... no????
A-all his pain and agony and guilt erupt in an explosion of physical pain... he had sank the knife into
his own abdomenB-screams out.. angelus!!!!!!
A-looks up at her... and twists the knife...
B-oh god... grabs at him.. whimpering... tears running down her face at this.... her pain almost
physical...
: please angelus.....A-all his emotional pain has been transformed into a physical pain... Tat he could deal with!
please what? I don't please you... so what do you want?B-angelus.. i want you... a small whisper staring at his blood.... feeling sick and terrified.. guilt
ridden.... frowns feeling like she was about to pass out.. sways a bit on her feet....shuts her eyes....A-why? I am a monster. I am a killer... I made Zargon my childe then taught him to kill slayers
then set you up as the Mythical Slayer and he couldn't pass up the challenge. Go back to bed
before you fall down. knives can't kill a vampire Buffy. Go to bedB-you are not a monster... you're a person I love.. a person learning how to feel.. and live... but a
person.. someone who's made mistakes in the past but I don't care about the past.. i accept it as
part of you...A-his blood is seeping down hi leg... he is ignoring it... : BULLSHIT I am a demon... who has
"appearances of being a person"B-looks at him with sad eyes just before she blacks out and falls....
A-catches her before she hits and carries her to the bed...lays her out and checks her over...holds
pressure on his wound and it starts to healB-whimpers softly already coming too....that was a first... small groan...
A-talking to himself...: This is such Bullshit... what the hell was choir boy thinking? We should have
just stayed in thedawn and let her go on with her life...sees she is awakeB-looks back at him.. you caught me????
A-Easy enough to do
B-nods... why didn't you let me fall???
A-didn't want to... you would have made a mess and been a bigger whiny bitch than you are now...
B-ignores his earlier words the thought of him dying making her blood run cold...raises an eyebrow
at him... in your words... bullshit....A-I don't know what choir boy has in mind but it is ridiculous to work on anything...we have
nothing... your the slayer... I am a vampire and it was a joke form the start... go away little girl. go
find some pimpled faced little boy to grow up with... play in the sun and have babies with and leave
me the fuck alone...starts to get up...B-looks at him... some of his words getting to her... she's hurt and beginning to believe him.... fights
her feelings...grabs his arms and holds onA-his emotions are agony... he has lost everything and it crunches his soul... he is terrified to even
try... to just touch it and be rejected... no better to send her away... despair fills him... hopeless
useless, unwanted...B-is that what you really want?????? you want me to leave you.. then here how you died.. so I kill
myself... you
want that.... or you want us to live with the ind feeling when each other is with another????A-turns and looks at her. What I want is meaningless. I wanted things and they were a fucking
joke!B-glares at him... then stands moving in front of him decides to get it through to him the one way
she can.....
reaches out and pushes him against the wall....hardA-Choir boy moped and whined and brooded for 80 years... then he pined for you and loved you
form afar... he should have stayed into he shadows and never spoke to youB-what things.. what do you want.. tell me????
A-stops talking when he hits. Why? Why say anything? anger flowing... with Betrayal a flavoring it
to bitternessB-what do you want angelus...... why are you betrayed.... I love you.. I'm sorry for hurting you.... if
you can't hurt me.. do you want me to?? turns and heads back to the kitchen to get his knife....A-fear laced through him and he grabbed her quickly pinning her to the wall...
B-looks at him... talk to me please.. cause what you're doing to me now is more painful than that
knife would be..angelus if I could take the words that hurt you back I would... even if it meant
killing me I would just to prove my love for youA-why should I trust you? Why should I tell you what I feel? You'll just throw it in my face some
day... that I am a monster,, useless, and anything related tot he past will be all my fault why
bother?B-i love you...... why should i trust you... I do..... I know you'll never hurt me...and i know you care
for me....A-Bullshit ... you tell me I am the cause of you pain... I did it! I didn't!
B-I made a mistakes angelus... a simple mistake.. i was hurting..... I lashed out.. exactly like you are
now....A-sorrow and loss are swelling up in him and he feel like he is going to die...he wants he so much ...
he stops and stares at her. : Buffy... give me an hour. turns and walks awayB-shuts her eyes slumps against the wall... beginning to think she lost...slowly falls to the ground..
silently crying sighs.. and crawls into the bed.. deciding he may come through... slowly rests her
head down and lays there... relaxing...A-Angelus is pacing around the house... he is trying to figure out what to do... he wants her so bad
it hurts... but if he trusts her and she hurts him... he is terrified he'll kill her... but she won't let him
go... he wants her... he didn't care about the baby that much... never was attracted to the little
shits himself anyway...and it would have seriously interfered with their lives... but he had told her
he was a monster and a demon and she lied to him and told him she accepted him...and then when
something came up form the past...betrayed him... denied their bonding and marriage... called him
a monster... he words rang in his head: a simple mistake.. i was hurting..... I lashed out.. exactly
like you are now.... exactly like you are now.... exactly like you are now.... : exactly like you are
now.... : shit....he didn't want to admit it but he loved he more than anything... when she betrayed
him he didn't know what to do... he looks down at his wedding ring. she still wanted him....
'exactly like you are now....' God it is a wonder if the humans can even function with these fucking
emotions... he decided to see a test. she feels the sense of decision... of hope of plan ringing
through him... he is up to something...B-fronws to herself but relaxes on the bed waiting...
A-he has a hope starting to build... anticipation. [she is really tuned into him]..he slides into game
face. he slowly walk over to the bedroom and the walks into the bedroom she sees his game face
form the moment he walked in.... he stops a moment...then walks over to the bed and stands at
the side looking at herB-glances at him... doesn't filch.. smiles slightly at him.... stays relaxed...
A-she can feel him... he wants her to touch him... to hold him he needs her to accept him...
B-slowly sits up... kneels on the bed..
A-he just stands there... looking at her
B-reaches up slowly... cups his cheek..... runs her hands over his ridges... soothing him softly with
her touch,A-he just stand there... too afraid to move... feeling her touch...need ing her touch... needing her
acceptance... needing her.B-leans forward slowly.. kisses his mouth lightly.. before leaning her head on his shoulder... arms
going around himtightly...A-he stand there stunned. he slowly puts his arms around her... and slowly tightens into a firm
hug...B-i love you angelus......nuzzels into him...
A-he tenses with the words...and then it is as if a damn broke... love and passion flows form him ...
he loves her... and he needs her... he is where he needs to be in her armsB-smiles in relief at his feelings.. and hand moving back to rest on his chest rubbing it softly....
A-he is starting to feel loved and is starting to relax...
B-welcome back.... i'm sorry angelus i really am..... rubs where he stabbed himself.. completely
healed now.....kisses his cheek lightly.....A-he pulls her into a kiss...and licks down her neck
B-arches her head back.. baring her neck to him....showing her trust....
A-that was the last piece. he sinks his fangs inot her neck and drinks...a solid pull... then he kisses
her. There is blood in his mouth and he kisses her voraciouslyB-hisses slightly... fighting her fear and memories of her draining... kisses him back...
A-he moans and pulls her tightly. " MINE" mumbled into her ear...
B-yours.. small whisper.....
A-he is stroking her and touching her. there is no raw sexual need... just the need to be touched.
B-nuzzles against him craving his touch and support, needed to know he forgave her..
A-strokes her skin...as if he can't get enough
B-arches into his touch.. looks up at him with hopeful eyes... we're ok???
A-hides his head and nods... I am not used to feelings.... I don't know what to do with them...
B-smiles gently.. then learn... just do what comes natural.. I'm not going to mind anything you do..
just feel andact...A-even when natural is ripping someone's throat out? small smile...
B-not that way.. then you find other ways to act on it... throw something or yell...
A-nods. guess the knife things wasn't proper either huh?
B-if you worried about anything or scare... unused to it.. just do what you think is right... shakes
her head.. no the knife thing was pretty.. unique...A-the whole idea is I can't seem to think...
B-smiles.. welcome to life...
A-shit.
B-smiles gently.. what are you feeling.. right now angelus...
A-he continues to touch and stroke... kiss and lick... it is more companionably and more social than
anything...B-almost purrs under his touch... leaning against him.. hand rubbing his chest.. tracing his face... I
know I loveyou.. frowns.. slightly... damn.. slowly moves out of his touch... hold on to that thought..
just need my meds.. winces....A-he rolls over and gets her meds and brings them to her with something to drink
B-smiles.. thanks.... takes them and curls back into him...
A-he lays down beside her...and strokes her. he seems that he can't get enough of her she is
amazed... he seems not to have any sexual response to her at all... does he not want her anymore?B-nuzzles into him.... whimpers.. angelus.... you're going to kill me soon... what's up??? small
smile....A-what do you mean what's up? I don't understand
B-feeling a small vein of arousal running through her... blushes slightly...
A-do you not want me to touch you? voice hurt...
B-rubs against him... the only times you touch me like this are when we..... trails off ducks her
head... I love it whenyou touch me... I love knowing you're here and you care.. I need your touch..A-I need to touch you...
B-it's just you're so....relaxed... small squeak
A-you don't like me relaxed? confused
B-frowns... i love this angelus... I'm just surprised.. normally you only touch me when you want to
make love.. you're not even aroused.... It confused e... blushes bright red..A-Buffy... I always want to touch you. I am not allowing attention to go sexual because you can't
handle it physicallyright now. The doctor gave me a long lecture on not pushing sex...B-goes even brighter red and hides her face in his shoulder...
A-so I am staying asexual until you can handle it...
B-but I can still please you.... small muffled voice
A-please. touching you, holding you pleases me... I don't need orgasms to be pleased by you
B-nods.. snuggles against him.. did the doctor say how long???
A-do you really want o know?
B-nods....then looks at him.. it can't be too long.. a few weeks....
A-he would let me know more on your next visit... [eight weeks away]
how much longer after he sees how your healed... I am betting you will be cleared then, being the
slayer and all...
: regular humans... 4 to 6 monthsB-blinks.. you're kidding.... eight weeks... no way.... can't we do ... things before then with out
actually doing it???blushing again..A-yeah, but no penetration. neither vaginally or other
B-frowns.. ok... I can handle that... frowns.. just not yet... snuggles into him.. rubbing his chest...
A-Buffy relax and just BE...there is not stress on it from me... so relax
B-nods.. rubs against him.. loving his body... looks up at him... so you're ok now??? in touch with
your emotions...A-yeah...their scary
B-nods.. emotions are that i guess... remember if you like them.. act on them... and never hold
them inside.. if you'reupset.. be upset.. break something. let things out...kisses his cheek softly..A-god... I thought being a demon was hard...pulls her shirt off to stroke and kiss her breasts
B-smiles.. it is... but having emotions can help.... frowns.. when you're angry or don't like your
opponent in a fightyou fight better right??A-if you don't lose functioning
B-arches into his touch... strangely not turned on....people need the edge emotions give them..
you've seen the way I react with different emotions.. it's just what's natural...A-yeah... but it hurts...[mumbled]
B-what??? angelus didn't quite catch it....
A-it hurts... emotions...HURT...
B-slides her hands over his bare chest.. tracing the muscles
A-he is laying there like a big cat being petted... low purr in his chest...
B-nods... they can do... but what about your love for me..... does that hurt??..leans forward nibbles
his shoulderA-no... no it feels good...but it's scary...kisses and suckles her breasts... teasing the nipples...
B-lets him go with a small kiss..... lots of things feel good.... you just have to learn what..... and how
to react...whether you want to enjoy the feelings or to hide and fear them.... whimpers lightly...
moves against his mouth...A-nips lightly and sucks hard then licks to soothe
B-groans... feeling her arousal build... hisses slightly.. angelus....
A-laughs low in his throat....
B-gently guides him up for a kiss.... easy angelus....please... still a bit sore... kisses him softly... acting
on emotion hmm??A-you told me too... kiss and nips down he abdomen skirting the incision healing on her stomach
B-whimpers falling onto the bed... what happened to no touchy feely... small mutter.. not upset...
A-no penetration... no limit on pleasuring you... small chuckle
B-groans.. oh boy... heads fall into the bed.... legs open a little.... only if I can have my turn with you
next...A-maybe... he dips into her moistening core... the lubrication still works...licking her lips and
nibbling on them, pulling on them then lickingB-moans loudly.. legs coming up....angelus!!!!
A-sucks her clit into his mouth licks it hard with his tongue then nips it
B-please... lift her hips slightly... her weeks without him hitting her hard.. she's already on the edge
A-he licks and sucks stroking her and increasing her passion...
B-thrusts against him... repeating his name over like a chant...
A-he continues until she comes hard....
B-screams softly as she coms..... tears coming to her eyes....gasping for breathe..
A-he holds her and strokes as she comes down..she hurts... but it is a "good ache" the meds taking
most the pain away... he timed it so the meds would be in full effectB-whimpers against him... angelus... smiles kissing him.. thought you were waiting.... small chuckle..
loves it..A-I am waiting to fuck you... didn't say I would wait to make love to you....
B-smiles.. rubs against him.. i do love you.... small whisper smiling..nips his shoulder playfully.. rubs
her hand down to his stomach looks at him.... angelus.. asking for his permission.. leans forward..
sucks on his neck biting it... wicked smile forming....A-groans and thrusts up into her bite...
B-smiles.. hand sneaks down.. finds his erection through his pants... runs her hand over it. rubbing
itA-buffy.... groans... he is getting hard with her attention
B-rubs it harder.. then smiles sweetly at him before licking and sucking at him on her way down..
stops at hiserection.. kisses the very tip..A-growls...
B-smiles at his growl.... then licks the length of his erection.. smiling at the taste she missed... takes
him into her mouth slowly.. sucking gently...A-ohh ohh. harder.
B-sucks harder.. nips him very gently.... remembering who she's playing with... takes him as far as
she can.. sucking hard.. tongue rubbing around him as she sucks...A-oh he thrusts lightly almost a reflex action
B-backs off gently.. not ready to take more of him in.... backs up so she's only sucking the tip
before thrustingback downA-moans... harder buffy...harder...please...harder
B-sucks harder... nibbling on him firmer...
A-groans... she tastes precome...he is really hot and bothered
B-slides and hand under and squeezes his balls caressing them...backs up and licks his length
before kissing his balls lovingly...A-groans and thrust instinctively....grabing the linens... starting to tear...
B-easy boy... soft whisper before taking him back into her mouth sucking as hard as she can.. nips
him.. not as gentle this time...finger slides down.. rubs against his anal entry... presses slightly...A-groans... the pain turning him on... he gets harder...growls with pleasure...
B-pulls back for a moment looking at him...then roughly takes him into her mouth.. bites on him...
firmly...finger forcing itself into him....A-he groans and thrusts hard and comes hard.. pumping into her mouth
B-swallows.. drinking from him.. sucking hard for the very last drops...
A-groaning... then pulls her off it is too damn sensitive for that!
B-whimpers softly.... not wanting to go..
A-Buffy! pulls her up hard... thats cruel...
B-whimpers.. but cuddles against him... I don't understand...
A-It is too sensitive after I come like that... what pleased prior is torture after...
B-kisses his shoulder... nibbles it softly.... ohh sorry.....i didn't know you liked it... things rough??
A-god that was intense...I like it really rough Buffy. In fact I am into pain...
B-looks at him... but i might hurt you for real... leans forward again.. nipping at his neck....
A-buffy, don't worry... I doubt you have the ability to hurt me too much kisses her forehead
B-thinks again.. i thought after when you were.... a slave you would hate it that way.... asked very
carefully...A-lets say... it is a learned preference
B-busies herself with nibbling on his collar bone.... like what you've taught me to like... at the castle
and with you
those first times?A-yes...pain is just another form of stimulation and actually uses the same nerves as pleasure...with
our healing ability we can take quite a bit of pain without serious damageB-moves up so she straddles his stomach looking down at him..... nips his ear..... small chuckle..w ell
right
now you can.. me I'm stuck with slow and gentle....A-laughs...
B-licks his inner ear....slides off and looks down at his body...what do you like.. shy mumble...
A-I dunno... what do you want to do? voice husky with arousal
B-frowns.. i'm not sure... never ever thought about hurting you before....kisses his neck...
A-never mind Buffy relax with it we will play later... you have had a hell of a day and we need to
rest...B-nuzzles.. but you're you need to.. err. you're not tired...???...nips his neck.. hard....
A-I love you Buffy...
B-i love you too.. bites him again.. this time hard enough to leave a mark...
A-purrs at the attention
B-looks up quickly making sure she didn't hurt him too much...
A-he is smiling...
B-kissing him... nibbling on his lower lip.... bites that hard before looking at his body....smiles at
him.... still want to sleep.. sly grin...A-he is instantly aroused and goons in pleasure..I don't need to Sleep Buffy but you do... your
healing... we have the rest of our lives to play... cuddle with me...B-nips at his shoulder.. then frowns not really wanting to... looks at him again.... you're still aroused
angels... smallpout...A-Buffy... I wasn't until you bit me... smiles...
B-smiles so then.... I don't have to sleep... looks at him smiling... smothering a yawn...
A-no you do ... hold me...I need to be held Buffy.
B-nips at him again.... then sighs and cuddles up to him.. maybe just a small nap........
A-This bed brings back memories...
B-chokes a little what????
A-lying in it was the storms of winter blew when I was but a wee lad...
B-nuzzles more firmly into him relaxing.... small chuckle.. thought you meant sexual memories.....
A-lying on it with my rumpled warmed after beating when I misbehaved only if you count
masturbation Buffy. No woman ever slept in this bed with me until youB-eyes shutting listening to him.... bet you were a little brat.. no one??
A-no one. ever...I was willful and often disobedient... my father never took that well
B-smiles kissing his shoulder... thank you for bringing me here....sure
A-I wanted to share with you... I wanted part of a past that wasn't horrible...I spent all but the last
4 years of my breathing life in this bed...B-nuzzles into him more slowly getting sleepier... this is wonderful... gives a small chuckle.. never
pictured youone for masturbating...thought there'd always be a lady...A-hey I was a normal hormonal sexually repressed Irish Catholic boy...
B-rubs her face against him , almost like a kitten...
A-I spent alot of time in bed...alone. Chuckles
B-smile... still can't picture it... yawns...move against him getting more comfortable...
A-I would lay in bed and dream and fantasize about my "true love" and beat my meat till I was
blistered...wry chuckle.B-chuckles softly......wish i had been there to see that... kisses his cheek softly..
A-it is so much nicer with you... and being in the bed with my true love...
B-smiles... it's nice with you two,,,,,
A-no I am glad you didn't...I was impulsive, headstrong,arrogant...I don't think you would have
liked me much ...narrow-minded and opinionatedB-smiles.. I wish.... I wish the impulsiveness was still there.... looks at him, you need to live.....you're
so sadsometimes....still half asleep hardly aware of what she's saying...A-controlling my impulses is a good thing Buffy. but I will work on letting the milder one out ok?
B-nods.. you're a lot like angelus.. both laerning to live again....frowns thank you angel... for locking
him out.... frowns was harder than I thought....A-yeah except I am learning "again" he is learning for the first time... hard on me too...
B-nods... sorry didn't realize what he'd do with the knife...
A-I didn't either... but it fits his style... couldn't handle the emotion but knows how to handle
physical pain...B-yawns again... snuggles a bit eyes shutting again..... yeah, he'll learn though... small giggle.. think
he's going to be a handful when he gets his emotions sorted...A-yeah... I hope you can handle him... he is going to be a pain in the ass when he gets to a
teenagers phasesB-head falls back slightly... can always handle him. think he's going to be more caring than
anything else....A-laughed at t he idea of angelus 'caring'
B-slowly drops off to sleep in his arms,,,, mumbling.. you'll see....
A-lays there stroking her softly watching her sleep
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