Armageddon SagaBuffy woke the next morning after she found out Angel and Angelus were being blended by the
Chapter Thirty-One: Morning After
By the Lady Sirona ladysirona@LadySirona.com
Lady Tirla in the final preparations for the battle. The Slayers were preparing and their final
arrangements were occurring today and she had to be ready to fight. Her body still remembered the passion and the love she experienced at the hand of the blended Angel/us and her head swam.She prepared to eat a small breakfast of crackers and tea for settling the morning sickness, then
with the stomach settled, planned to have some oatmeal while reflecting on the changes. *I should have realized sooner. The laugh, the smirk. God, what now? I don't believe this. God, the sex with Angelus, had been incredible! It felt wonderful.* She then stopped her thought roughly. *Sex with Angleus was wonderful? What about Angel?*Willow came up to the table "Hi how are you doing?" Buffy was lost in her own world and was
completely distracted and so didn't even see her. Willow had seen this look before, she called it "Angel Missage", and she sat down and fussed with her tray. She noticed that Buffy was absently rubbing her belly. "Having cramps Buffy? You want some Midol?"Called from her internal reflections, Buffy looked up and saw Willow staring at her. "Hmmmm?"
Willow smiles, and asks again. "Are you having cramps? Do you want some Midol?" Buffy looked at Willow. That’s right, they don't know the latest in the Slayer soap opera... She chuckled a little. "No, I don't need it now." She sees Willows confused look and smiles. Willow looked at her curiously. "You always have such rough periods Buffy, why not?"Buffy snorts and snickers. " I won't need any for about nine months” The statement sinks into
Willow and her eyes go wide. She squeaks "Your pregnant?" and Buffy smiles at her and grins a little."Yep, that's me - with child-preggers-morning sickness and all that."
Willow stared at Buffy stunned. "How...no don't answer that! I know how... who?" Willow's
mind was ranging on who could have made her pregnant... vampires can't have children, so it wasn't Angel. She and Buffy discussed in long detail when Angel told her that he couldn't father children during the egg experiment in school, and had they cried over it. So, who could have made Buffy pregnant?Buffy continued with a big grin and giggles " Your not going to believe me.." Willow cuts her off
in fear. "Oh god you didn't cheat on Angel did you?" She looks at her, heart broken. Who else has
been around? Xander... Giles? Her stomach flipped at the thought of it being Xander.Buffy snorts loudly "Of course not!"
She looked into the Slayers shining eyes and knew it wasn't Xander or Giles... only one person
put that look in Buffy's eyes... Angel. "It’s his? Angel's?" Buffy giggled a big smile on her face, "Don't ask us how, but yes!" She rubbed her belly again. She couldn’t believe she is carrying his child!Willow squealed and bounced up and down. "Oh my God Buffy! I'm gonna be an aunt!" She
hugged Buffy who sits there patiently as she jumps and bounces. "Yep, Your going to be Aunt Willow, it’s going to be so cool."Willow stops and looks at the now known pregnant Slayer. "I can't believe it... what does Angel
think of it?" Buffy smiled at the memory of his response. "Hell, HE knew before I did, he's thrilled, he thought he could never father children."Willow held her hand in excitement. "Really? I think that is so neat... You are happy, aren't you?
Now what? Is he going to marry you?" She was shocked to see Buffy’s face fall and her eyes fill with tears. "We haven't even talked about it. I haven't seen him since we got back from The Gypsy compound last night."Willow had a sinking feeling, and she didn't like it. "Oh no... why not?" Buffy's face was full of
anger and she spat out one word with all the venom she could muster. "Tirla." Willow looked at Buffy with wide eyes. Was Tirla still going to keep them apart for the 121 years Angel was obligated to her? Was Tirla going to separate them and make Buffy raise his children alone? "What happened Buffy," Willow asked the crying Slayer.Buffy looked at her best friend. She finally blurted out past her pain, "She's, blending them!"
Willow looks at her in shock. "Blending who?" Buffy took in a ragged breath. "Angel, and Angelus,She is blending the two of them into one." Willow stared in horror and shock. Blending the kind and loving Angel with the demon monster Angelus? "Oh No!" Buffy looked up, tears streaming down her cheek. "I don't know what to do Will, he is changed, different. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel. He came to me last night, after she blended them... God, Willow, it was the most incredible sex I have ever had with him... and now I discover it wasn't Angel but a blending of Angel and Angleus!"Willow swallowed hard... to have Angelus in your bed, making love to you... Knowing the demon
had been that close to anyone she loved made her skin crawl..."Oh God Buffy... does he still love you? I mean Angelus... oh god..." When Buffy said she didn't know what she should feel...totally wigged came to mind for Willow.Buffy sighed. "Love me? I don't know. What do you think?" Willow didn't know if she wanted
to know the answer but she had to ask. "Did he hurt you?" Buffy looked away, and the fear boiled up in Willows throat until she heard Buffy's reply. "No."Willow sighed. "That's a plus... not being hurt I mean... but if he was both Angel and Angelus..."
She couldn't even put her thought into words. Buffy took the opening and continued. "It was like it was both of them, he was possessive, and rough, but gentle at the same time, does that make any sense?" The look was one of lust and desire. Willow stared at her in shock."You liked it!" Willow was amazed by the look on Buffy's face.
Buffy looked at her shyly, "No.. actually, yeah. I loved it." She admitted to the hacker at the same time she admitted the truth to herself. Willow's jaw dropped. *She loved it?* Buffy continued as if in a daze. "Yeah, Angel's he's never acted like that before, He usually is gentle and shy and never aggressive. Last night he was strong, possessive, powerful, commanding," her voice drifted off into memories.
Willow smiled at her obvious happiness.. "Let me guess, Mr. cryptic and Shy wasn't either...did he act at *all* like Angelus?" Willow shuddered at the thought.
Buffy looked up and thought a moment. "No, not the Angelus I remember, that Angelus was
cruel, a demon... Last night he was just more masculine, stronger, more powerful, commanding and aggressive in a sexy way, last night he was rough, and yet gentle and passionate. Rough and gentle too, but god... it was like he couldn't stop. But at the same time he made sure he didn't hurt the baby or me. I have seen Angel passionate but never seen him like *that* before."Willow sighed at the thought of such love. "He loves you... both of them do. He always had..."
Buffy looked at her "I know, Angel loves me, Angelus was intrigued by me..." Willow sighed and
interrupted her. "No Angelus *loved you*... it was plain to see every time he dealt with you!" How could Buffy not seen the passion and the emotion in Angelus' eyes? "He was a soul-less demon, so he didn't show it right!"Buffy chuckles ruefully "Funny, Will" And looked at her to see she wasn't laughing. "I am serious
Buffy. Look past your expectations and at the actual facts. He was all over you, but never in all those months ever seriously hurt you. He was more like a kid on the playground punching you in the arm and running to tell his friends. Angelus was like a 3rd grader, teasing you cruelly cause he likes you and doesn't know what to do...with the feeling or the emotion or how to show you.”Buffy snickers of the thought of a 245-year-old demon doing that. "Now that I think about it, He
did act like that." Willow nodded. "You were still all he ever thought of. I remember the prophecy I read before we cam here while I was in the Watchers library: 'The key to the success of the light, is the blending of a love of a Demon with the soul of an Angel, as to know when to raise battle and do damage and to kill innocents to protect the world, and all for the love of his Slayer Prime. From the small death, will come salvation of the world.' Willow quoted slowly... while wondering who will die... Buffy? Angel? The baby? Both? All?"It is meant for him to be blended Buffy." Willow told her and felt better as Buffy nodded. Buffy
then continued more to herself than to the hacker. "We had the most incredible sex, and ...and then, Tirla came and took him away." Tears streamed down her face again. "She won't even let him near me now. She is purposefully keeping us apart... I want him, need him so much, I can barely stand it.""Why?" Willow asked. Buffy looked at her and sighed. "So that he'll have incentive to fight
harder, for me and the baby." Willow remembered the other part of the prophecy...it now made sense and terrified her at the same time : 'Led by the Oldest, her champion the Cucularaine, along with his gravid consort Slayer Prime, and the Slayers will fight the Army of Darkness. Slayers will fall. The Slayer Prime will lose her most cherished, to battle the evil.'Willow looked at Buffy in dawning horror, "She's holding you out to him like a carrot, a prize for
fighting and winning the battle? Harsh." Buffy nodded sadly. Willow continued. "But in a perverse way it makes sense invoking the male protector instinct in Angelus is a dangerous thing...he tends to go ballistic when he thinks you threatened and he does that GRRR thing... I still remember the time you went to the fraternity house and I saw it up close and personal..." Willow wrinkled her face in imitation of his game face and growled.Buffy sighed. "Maybe, but she's driving both of us crazy." Buffy absently rubs the side of her
neck and chuckles. “He does the grrrrr thing when he's with me too." She smiles off into space as
Willow stares where she had been bit. Willow finally found her voice..."That won't hurt the baby having him drink like that? I know you love it when he does the GRRR thing..."Buffy laughed and smiled at her. "He only takes a little, and I do love it, makes me..”Buffy
giggled and Willow looks away embarrassed. "Oh this is so intense... I am so happy for you... after the battle, will she let you two be together again? I mean she doesn't plan to keep him the full 121 years does she?"Buffy sighed. "I don't think so, but Will, what if we don't make it?" Willow looked at Buffy with
her strongest look. "Then you will have forever." She sighed. "Buffy, I know you don't know if either or both of you will make it. No one may make it. It may be the end of the world, but we are all dead if you guys don't give it your all..."Buffy looked at Willow, fear of the horrible future facing the world and they didn't even know! "I
know, but I'm afraid." Willow nodded. To be afraid was logical, not to be would be insane. "Buffy, so all you can do is give it your all, and we pray you survive. I know you’re scared. I know I am terrified. And there isn't a damned thing I can do about it... it is in all your hands..""Willow, am I selfish? The world can end, and all I am worried about is not wanting to lose the
baby, or Angel." Buffy looked at her friend for their support she needed."I know Buffy, I know, and I know he doesn't want to lose either of you." Buffy sighed and
looked at her best friend memorizing her face. It could very well be one of the last times she gets to really talk to her. "I know I have to fight, and I will." Willow knew how much that simple sentence cost her to say... Willow smiled through her own tears. "We will be praying for all of you"Buffy looked at where some of the other Slayers were gathering. How many will fall in the
battle? "I know...We will all need it."
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